Ok – so my question today is: what is real?
As I am sitting writing this I am currently trying to grow my grey hair back ‘in’. Gone are the oranges and the reds. Time for me to assess where and why I was doing these things.
For me – was it trying to look younger? Trying to please someone? Trying too hard to be a little bit different?
All I know was that it has now served its purpose, and I did it.
It looked fab for a while. But then the harsh chemicals started damaging my hair. The expense of it per month (something that I could certainly do without), and then the grey growing back in SO quickly – roots, roots and more roots. And the home bought stuff just wouldn’t cover the grey/white at the front….
I try and be my authentic self as much as possible.
My weight fluctuates depending on the time of year, and how much exercise and yoga I do. [Currently my focus is admin and Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) so I have gained a few excess pounds from the Summer months of pizza with the children for example…..].
So heading into winter the focus is getting back on track.
Eat healthier and better. Bring Yoga back in at least 4 times a week (nothing too strenuous to start with).
Then grow my grey hair ‘in’.
Will it make me look older? Probably.
Does my appearance matter – not overly bothered about this I have to be honest. As long as I am clean and comfortable.
Do I fit in with all the latest trends? Certainly not – most of my clothes are at least 6+ years or older due to limited funds but that doesn’t really bother me.
Do I have a thin and a fat wardrobe? Yep – most certainly (Including some very forgiving ‘fat’ yoga pants).
So the long red locks have gone. To make way for a shortish bob that is allowing the grey to run the show.
With that in mind I have decided to embrace me a little more.
Does it bother me when people see my hair half red with huge grey roots? Not really.
Does it bother me when people wear lots of make-up and false nails? Nope – everybody has their reason to do these things and who am I/are we to judge? We don’t know what that person is going through and this may be their treat to themselves to make them feel better or give them confidence….. Who knows?
What other people wear and how they present themselves in not really my/our business.
So do I accept myself for what I am? I think so.
Do I work hard to try and be the best version of myself? Every day.
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o back to the ‘what is real’?
Being real to me means that you open yourself and look inward and become more accepting of all that is around you – including situations, circumstances and people for example.
You try to be the best version of yourself each day. (What does that mean?)
You try to be kind, honest, open, gentle, non-judgemental, loving, supporting, and compassionate as well as a few other things.
Do I hate? No. What good does it do to hate something/somebody? None. It is a waste of energy. Put your energy into something positive and constructive. There is a saying that ‘hate is like drinking your own poison’ and I truly believe that.
Do I make mistakes? Of course. But I do always try and turn a negative into a positive. I see a problem as a challenge to accept and move forward. And if I need to say sorry I do so with genuine meaning, in that should the situation arise again I would not repeat what I was saying sorry for.
Since settling in France I have met some absolutely gorgeous people. I have NO doubt at all that many of them will be lifelong friends.
I am blessed to be here.
Being as true to myself as possible.
I embrace the future and look forward to it.
Life is a challenge. An intricate web of paths that we take both consciously and subconsciously to bring us to where we are supposed to be.
Everything really does happen for a reason.
The people that we meet – we meet them for a reason. To teach us something about ourselves, or to teach us a lesson (sometimes repeatedly until we learn the lesson)….
I look forward to continuing on this path and as the mist starts to rise on this Autumn Day I look forward to the future, and embrace its challenges with both my hands and my heart open.
Have love, faith, hope, belief and trust.
Love to you all – Namaste
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